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A penile implant – My forty-one year journey through the darkness of ED
I am in my third day of post penile implant surgery recovery. I’m going to fill some of the,”ice my balls” time to post on this forum. My hope is that my story will inspire those who are suffering from ED to seek the amazing treatments that are available.
I’m a 59 year old male who has suffered and endured the ravages of erectile dysfunction my entire adult sexual life. After consulting Dr. Goldstein a little over a year ago it was determined that I must have suffered a physical trauma to my penis when I was very young. I have no memories of any such accident but the diagnosis was unmistakable. I have ED and it’s getting worse as I age.
I initially noticed symptoms of ED when I had my first sexual experiences in my late teens. Back in the early 70s nobody talked about erectile dysfunction so I just thought I was suffereing performance anxiety or some other mental aversion to sex. That concept felt very odd to me as I loved the thought of sex. The fantasies of being physically intimate with a girl would totally kick my libido into over drive. Normal for an eighteen year old, right? So what was my problem?? Was I gay? I tried that too just to make sure I was trying to play on the appropriate team for my sexuality. I was, to say the least, in discovery mode. But… to no avail, when in the midst of a very sexually aroused situation I had a very difficult time getting or keeping a useable erection.
And so my journey began… my experiences were no where near the media driven frenzy of peace and “free love” that permeated the youth of the 70s. My mind, my libido, basically my entire body was on board to have a very fun and adventurous sex life… everything, except my penis.
…to be continued