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A penile implant – My forty-one year journey through the darkness of ED

Youngatheart

I am in my third day of post penile implant surgery recovery. I’m going to fill some of the,”ice my balls” time to post on this forum. My hope is that my story will inspire those who are suffering from ED to seek the amazing treatments that are available.

I’m a 59 year old male who has suffered and endured the ravages of erectile dysfunction my entire adult sexual life. After consulting Dr. Goldstein a little over a year ago it was determined that I must have suffered a physical trauma to my penis when I was very young. I have no memories of any such accident but the diagnosis was unmistakable. I have ED and it’s getting worse as I age.

I initially noticed symptoms of ED when I had my first sexual experiences in my late teens. Back in the early 70s nobody talked about erectile dysfunction so I just thought I was suffereing performance anxiety or some other mental aversion to sex. That concept felt very odd to me as I loved the thought of sex. The fantasies of being physically intimate with a girl would totally kick my libido into over drive. Normal for an eighteen year old, right? So what was my problem?? Was I gay? I tried that too just to make sure I was trying to play on the appropriate team for my sexuality. I was, to say the least, in discovery mode. But… to no avail, when in the midst of a very sexually aroused situation I had a very difficult time getting or keeping a useable erection.

And so my journey began… my experiences were no where near the media driven frenzy of peace and “free love” that permeated the youth of the 70s. My mind, my libido, basically my entire body was on board to have a very fun and adventurous sex life… everything, except my penis.

…to be continued

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Youngatheart

It’s day five of my surgery recovery. I have to say that up to this point the “pain and discomfort” that I was anticipating has been 40 to 50% less than I was expecting. I have not needed to take any pain medication since I came home. But not today. I awoke this morning to even the IV location on my wrist looking bruised and it ached. For the first time my loins screamed for a Percocet…I gave in. I also noticed more bruising in my genitals. The good news?… Meds are a wonderful thing and 30 minutes later I felt tremendous relief.

I reflect back on all the less than fulfilling sexual experiences of my youth and I get excited at the what life will be like for me once I heal.

Youngatheart

Day nine of my recovery…

I’m definitely on the backside of the pain/discomfort curve. The bruising, swelling, incision scabs and such are almost all gone. I find this delightfully ironic but the main discomfort I have now is trying to comfortably fit this semi-erect penis into my clothes. It’s my understanding from Dr. Goldstein that he slightly inflates the implant during surgery and it stays that way through the recovery proccess.

I have to admit… my amazingly loving and supportive wife of 15 years keeps looking at my partial erection with a little twinkle in her eyes. THAT is an experience I have rarley enjoyed in all my adult sexual life. I’m beginning to feel like a complete man for the first time in my life.

I remember sitting in a therapist’s office a few years ago as my wife and I were seeking some sexual counseling. I was expressing my increasing difficulties of dealing with ED when, to my amazement, the highly trained, recommended counsellor said, “You know… there’s a lot more to being sexual than having a hard penis.” I glared back at her and said, “WOW! wellll that’s easy to for you to say!”

My struggles with ED NEVER kept me from being sexual. In fact, it caused me to develope an extremely vibrant and colorful sexuality. So in a sense, the therapist was right… despite my “shortcomings” I was very sexually active. She called this “Over-compensating”… Yes! We never saw her again. That one painful session taught me that sometimes even trained professionals struggle with erectile dysfunction.

Youngatheart

Day fifteen of my recovery…

Today was an exciting benchmark for me. I had a visit to Dr. Goldtein’s office. My healing and surgery recovery has been amazing. I’m only experiencing discomfort in my scrotum after hours of being on my feet. No pain at all in my penis, no more bruising…nothing. It’s gone sooooo well that today after Dr. G examined me I quipped, “Well… are we gonna take this Ferrari out for a test drive and see what she can do?” Laughingly, Dr.G said he was all in favor of moving up the recovery proccess if I was willing to handle the possible pain and/or discomfort. I excitedly said, “Let’s do this!!”

With that he helped me get aquainted with my new implant. Honestly, I had been exploring my new anatomy for a few days at home. No pumping, per doctors strict orders but just gentle probing trying to identify the pump and release valve. Being in Dr. G’s office and having a demo implant in front of me so I could orientate myself with what I was feeling in my body really helped. Within seconds I was actually pumping up my implant… what a rush!… there it was. A full and beautiful erection. I was amazed at how natural it looked and felt. No one could ever tell that I had an implant. My erection was as big and full as any I had ever had using either Levitra or injections. Dr. Goldstein then excused himself to briefly check in on another patient. While he was out of my examinatin room I decided to go rogue and try to deflate my erection.

When he returned he looked down at my limp penis and said, “You did it yourself!! “Amazing, I’ve never had a patient deflate themselves for the first time without me!” All of that digital probing, prodding, pumping and such with zero pain or discomfort.

With that hurdle cleared, he instructed me to inflate and deflate at least twice a day…but NO SEX!! Butttt… he DID say that if I felt my penis could handle the discomfort I could try intercourse with my wife 3 weeks after my surgery. I jokingly grabbed my penis and lightly slapped it around showing him that I have to discomfort now. I have just seven more days and I will be making love with my wife again… I can’t wait…nor can she. :-)))

Youngatheart

My 10 week post penile implant surgery update…

I couldn’t be more thrilled! My wife and I are experiencing a new and very sexual awakening. No more pills, injections, and having to pre-plan our intimate times.

I have zero discomfort now. And it’s exciting to know that the flirting we have over a great Prime Rib dinner at one of our favorite restaraunts is going to make it’s way home. To know that it only takes 6 to 8 pumps to be ready for playtime is unbelievable. Thank you Dr. Goldstein!

I would HIGHLY recommend this surgery, and Dr. G, for anyone who is considering it.

By the way, the staff at the Alvarado Hospital was AMAZING too. Frankly that was one of the things I was worried about… the awkwardness of having this procedure done and being around the hospital staff. Again, they were amazing andVERY professional.

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